Tuesday, November 25, 2008

The Ever-Evasive Meaning of Life

After years of hearing about his radical theories, I am now finally reading the works of the German philosopher Friedrich Nietzsche. And I must say he was worth the wait. After 12 weeks of scoffing at the 'moral dilemmas' posed by the Ancient Greeks, and overlooking Mill's Utilitarianism as an impractical utopia, I was finally stopped in my (mental) tracks today by something Nietzsche said.

Nietzsche poses a question to his audience using an obscure concept called eternal recurrence (first posed to me, rather unconvincingly, by Schopenhauer): Imagine the life you are living, every moment you are experiencing, is going to repeat itself eternally. This exact life as you are leading it will happen to you again and again. Given this, is there something you would do differently?

The point of his question, in its clever disguise, was to make people analyze their life in this moment, this exact moment. So if you didn't have a past, and there was no tomorrow, would your current action, your current emotion, have any meaning?

As a relatively driven crowd of college students, we are always looking towards tomorrow. I wake up every morning so I can go to school. I go to school so I can get a degree. I get a degree in order to have a (potentially) successful career. This list goes on, one action always motivated by another, future goal. It culminates in having a comfortable, peaceful death. Is that it? Do we really postpone our happiness for the duration of our lifetime? Was Solon correct in saying "count no man happy until he is dead"? That is a rather depressing thought.

So I thought and I thought. I scoured my memories for moments in my life that had meaning just in themselves. Moments that, when stripped of their intentions (past) and consequences (future), I would happily repeat. Here are some of the contenders: eating ice-cream, having sex, going on bike rides, and sleeping.

Upon further analysis, I realized I eat to satisfy my hunger (future), and I will not eat if I am already full (past), so eating doesn't prevail. Bike rides are pleasurable to me, but partly because of that sore and satisfied feeling they give the next day, and partly because they are usually accompanied with an exciting destination, so biking doesn't hold either. The pleasure in sleep is contingent upon exhaustion from the previous day, so nor does that hold.

Now for sex. Well, there are two motivations for sex: orgasm and love; but there are no further motivations for either of those. I orgasm to orgasm. And I love to love. Well there it is, the ultimate meaning of my life is defined by love and orgasm.

Wait, what?! This is absurd. Surely Nietzsche, the man who questioned the existence of good and evil, wasn't such a romantic as to believe in living for love? Am I completely misinterpreting this or did Nietzsche have it all wrong and our lives aren't defined by moments?

I encourage you to think about the moments that define your life.

Questions, comments and criticisms are highly appreciated.

Saturday, October 11, 2008

Guess who's back?

I've been meaning to start this blog up again, but I couldn't muster up the energy to do so creatively. So I'm settling for copying Quyen.

What'​s a fact about​ the last perso​n who had their​ arms aroun​d you?
He is on a $1000 spending spree.

What do you curre​ntly hear right​ now?
Wind blowing, leaves rustling on Dwight.

Where​ did you get the shirt​ you are weari​ng?​
Bryan.

When was the last time you were told you were beaut​iful?
Walking home from Emo Palace last week by strangers.

Are you weari​ng a neckl​ace?​ Who got it for you?
No, I hate necklaces, they give me rashes.

What was the reaso​n you got groun​ded for last?
Haha, with my parents, its a constant grounding.

Do you wish you never​ dated​ someo​ne you dated​ ?
I don't do regret.

Do you know anyon​e that smoke​s weed?
More people than I wish.

Anyon​e's Birth​day today​?​
Let me check Facebook. Haha. No one significant.

Where​ is the furth​est place​ you've trave​led?​
India

Do you look more like your mom or your dad?
Dad, sadly, got the hairy genes from him for sure.

How long does it take you to showe​r?​
15 minutes on a work/school day. 20-25 when relaxing.

What was last thing​ you drank​ ?
Water.

If you could​ have one thing​ right​ now what would​ it be?
Show me a Genie and I'll tell you.

What was for dinne​r last night​ ?
Blondie's Pizza (for the first time since June 2005!!)

Does anyon​e love you?
Lots of people do.

How has the week been?
Great! 119 MT wasn't as bad as I expected, got a few nice bike rides and runs in, and finally met the fun people in BioEHS.

What girls​ can you tell every​ thing​ to?
Yaad, Quyen, Nina, Rebe

Have you ever kisse​d anyon​e who' s name start​ed with a M?
Hahah, I don't have the energy to go through the list.

What did you do at 7 am today​ ?
Sleep!

What did you do today​ ?
Let Atul into the apartment at 2:30am. Then later got up, made a delicious breakfast burrito, read the paper, cleaned the apartment, did GRE words.

Have you ever seen your best frien​d cry?
Hmm, yes.

Do you dance​ in the car?
Amongst other things, yes. ;-)

What color​ shirt​ are you weari​ng?​
Lime green, baby!

What were you doing​ 1 hour ago?
Showering.

Do you have reaso​n to smile​ right​ now?
Always, I have amazing people in my life!

Have you ever woke up next to someo​ne and wante​d to puke?
HAHAHA! No, does peeing count?

Do you have a bestf​riend​?​
I have many loves :-).

Are you looki​ng forwa​rd to anyth​ing?​
Watching another sunset today!

What went wrong​ today​ ?
Nothing so far!

Do you open up to peopl​e easil​y?​
Superficially, yes. But at the most personal level, only to a few people.

Has anyon​e upset​ you in the past week?
Yes, but nothing traumatic.

Do you think​ you would​ be a good paren​t?​
I'm going to be a GREAT parent!

Is your room clean​ ?
Sure, but I never make my bed.

What are you going​ to do tomor​row?​
Hike up to Mt. Tamalpais and have a pancake breakfast at the top! Then hopefully a Bhangra Collective @ Union Square Park later.

Who was drivi​ng the last car you were in?
Bryan

Who was the last perso​n that texte​d you?
Kate

What are you cravi​ng right​ now?
A secluded, car-free bike ride!

How did you sleep​ last night​ ?
Great, despite the 2:30am disruption. :-)

Do you think​ you will be in a relat​ionsh​ip 3 years​ from now?
Haha, I don't think that far.

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

A Moment of Silence

Today I am retiring my little black bikini. My first bathing suit, purchased with the help of Kate freshman year, it has provided me with countless hours of coast-to-coast fun. It has, however, seen its final sunset, and I am now ready to let it go with what little dignity it has left. To commemorate it, I thought I'd go through and list some of the amazing places its been with me, in the mean time reminiscing some great college times.

Bought June 2006, that infamous day of Core 4 at Santa Cruz. 4 friends, 5 hours of digging, 6-foot hole, a day we'll never forget.
November 2006: Going to visit Meemz at UCSD with Yaad. Goes down as top-five weekends in college still.
Just an idea of how silly we act around each other:
June 2007: Visiting Atul at USC with Rustin, Shirin, J-dub and Rebe. Another top-five weekend, so great to be driving around in LA with a stolen car- the great company made even the blistering heat and crawling traffic seem fun.

August 2007: The infamous trip to Santa Cruz with Shirin and Bryan, enough said.
September 2007: Pismo Beach, RCSA Inter-UC Super-Retreat. 50 nerds jammed into two connecting condos + booze + beach = insanity. And lets not forget the ATV'ing afterwards.
February 2008: Another trip to San Diego, this time to see Meemz, Yaad and Shalane. Awesome canoeing with UCSD Hawaiin Club!
March 2008: Bone Ski Trip. Skiing at Heavenly with the (UCSF) lab and afterwards relaxing in the jacuzzi out in the snow.
March 2008: Spring break in Clearlake, inner-tubing and practically drowning in 40 degrees water!
Last but not least, an entire semester of swim class that stretched my suit from spin-drying, and all to no avail. When my suit finally reached Jones Beach last weekend, it was so loose I was scared it was going to get smacked off and leave me exposed every time a wave hit me. With these good times behind it, I lay this suit to rest.

:-)